How God Called Me Away from My Job: Part 6 - Specifics / Apr - May '22

Behold, I will send you corn, and wine, and oil, and ye shall be satisfied therewith . . .

Joel 2:19

If I had read this story up until now, I would want to know how it ended.  "Ended" is kind of a misnomer though; does a story ever really end? I'm still breathing, so my story is still going.  I digress.  

Was I able to afford groceries and lights?  What a great question ... if you're asking.  (You can start here, at the beginning, if interested.)  

By the time God gave my husband and me double dreams that I was in rebellion, it was April 12, 2022.  I had been having a pretty straightforward, ongoing conversation with God since the three double confirmations, which wrapped up 02.21.22.  It went like this:  God, I don't want to have to struggle to buy socks and orange juice. (Yep, those two things were my go-to.)  I believe you're saying to step out, but how do I know when so that I'm timed with your provision?  We had already been through a lot of financial fluctuation, just by the nature of the industry my husband was in.  So, I just felt that I didn't have it in me to "stay strong" through yet another trial - especially one I felt could be self-induced.  But ah, now I knew it wasn't me.  In my first post, was this not the question?  "Is it me or you, God?"  But now I didn't have that discrepancy weighing down my mind. 

God had taught me a long while back that our desires are important.  In fact, my first prophetic experience was in a very small Bible study for teens - one I didn't plan to be at - where I told God I just wanted to hear from him, and I gave up my desires.  But God rocked my world when the person leading the study came straight to me during worship and said, "God says you have a desire on your heart tonight, and he wants you to ask for it...and he is setting in motion for that thing to come to pass."  And that, my friends, is not another post; it's a book, because that "thing" was a person - my husband.

I have never forgotten what and how God taught me that night.  So, wrapping back to the current situation, I knew that God appreciated my honesty, not only with him, but with myself.  So I told him I would trust him, but that I didn't want to struggle if not necessary.  I didn't need a mansion or fancy cars, but I did want my needs to be met ...and you know, maybe a little extra to see a movie now and then or visit someone/where out of town.  You get the gist.  

I asked God two things: 

1. Confirm to me that provision has already been made.

2. When do I quit?

I have learned that asking the right questions is a good practice.  If you remember the 2004 movie, I, Robot, (with Will Smith), the programmed hologram always talks about asking the right question.  I often think about scenes from this movie when asking God questions, and I chuckle.  Am I saying God is limited in his responses?  No.  But it does seem sometimes that when I am more tuned in with specific questions and prayers, there is movement or confirmation for a situation, and I realize sometimes that the question or the prayer was a "trigger" for the result.  But that is how relationship works, isn't it?  Even on a natural plane, with a spouse or friends or children, there is a give and take, and cause and effect.  

So, after the three double confirmations, the last of which came on 02.21.22, and my specific prayer about provision - for socks and OJ ...ahem... I had a dream seven nights later, on 02.28.22.  It went like this:  My husband and I were lying/sleeping in a field of corn at night, and the blades (leaves) of the cornstalks were somehow a bed for each of us - as if bunk beds.  One of us was on the top bunk and one on the bottom bunk.  It was dark, which maybe represented something not fully actualized or just being birthed, or even full revelation not being revealed yet.  I feel that because of the strength represented by the blades to hold us up, as well as the rest they provided, a season of harvest, not decay, was represented.  

I came to find out the next morning that my son also had a dream about corn.  But before that dream, he dreamed a separate dream that he was swimming on my back in a pool of "grape juice," he said.  I swam in a circle twice, swimming faster than is natural.  Then, the dream transitioned to a commercial of a little boy eating corn and saying, "Eat corn for energy, so you can go fast!"  After praying and meditating on all of this, I came to realize the word of God talks about new grain, wine, and oil.  Joel 2:19 says:  Yea, the Lord will answer and say unto his people, Behold, I will send you corn (grain), and wine (new wine), and oil, and ye shall be satisfied therewith . . .  Psalm 104:15 says, And wine that maketh glad the heart of man, and oil to make his face to shine, and bread which strengtheneth man's heart.  

In studying all of this out, I came to find that:

• Grain represents material/financial blessing
• Wine represents emotional blessing (joy)
• Oil represents spiritual blessing (anointing/Holy Spirit) ...The oil was represented in another dream God had given to me separately.

Pretty cool stuff!  The grape juice my son dreamed about was, I believe, actually wine.  Also, a pool/swimming (water) can represent being in communion with the Holy Spirit.  The two laps (I believe) represented a double confirmation to me that God was speaking.  Also, not to blow your mind, but the word corn in Hebrew comes from a primitive root that means "to move rapidly," and also to "become numerous, grow, multiply, and increase."  A picture from Strong's Concordance is below (H1711).

As interesting as this is, it is even more interesting because Strong's says that this is used only as a denominative from H1709, which you can see below gives the picture of a fish propelling itself forward with the vibrating motion of its tail.

So what was I doing in my son's dream?  Swimming very fast, like a fish.  In other words, the Spirit was moving, and he was moving fast.  I didn't have to worry about whether or not he was considering me, and things were moving as planned.  He was showing me not only were they moving, but fast...in the spirit and otherwise.  He made sure to confirm this a few ways.

I also want to point out, though - because I think it's important - that there was actually spiritual warfare going on even over this amazing and sweet communication from God.  On the tail end (no pun intended) of my cornfield dream, I dreamed a horrific dream.  My daughter had two horrific dreams, looking back over my journal.  And also looking through my texts the morning after, I realized in typing this that my son and my husband both experienced sleep paralysis sometime during the night.  So, this particular night was a wrestling to obtain the message.  But God was clear that he was providing.  And in case I was to doubt my dream, or didn't understand it, he not only gave confirmation to my son of the same message, but expounded upon it.

I was so thankful!  My first question had been answered.  But now I needed direction on when to quit.  So again, I prayed, and on 03.01.22, I had a very quick dream of a coloring book page with a sun on it that made me feel joyful.  It was similar to the picture (of a coloring page) in a book I knew called The Day the Crayons Quit.  (This is a phenomenal book, by the way.  I strongly recommend buying or checking out from your library.  Bonus points if you do a different "voice" for each crayon.)  And then it hit me!  The day the crayons quit!  Oh my goodness.  There it was - the confirmation.  And what is equally as cool is that, here I am almost a year later typing this, and just this morning, I realized that one of the pages with the sun on it - because there are two, where the colors orange and yellow are arguing over what color the sun actually is - is called "Happy Farm."  Why is this cool?  I'll just quote yellow crayon from the book:  Last Tuesday, you used me to color in the sun on your "Happy Farm" coloring book.  In case you've forgotten, it's on page 7.  You can't miss me.  I'm shining down brilliantly on a field of YELLOW corn! [bold mine] 

Found this pic babyology.com.au, but the page link says "not found" when you click on it.  Just trying to give credit here, people.  This pic is much better clear than me taking on my cell phone out of the book we own.

So, there you have it folks!  God answered both questions for me.  The first re. provision being made was on 02.28.22, and the second about timing was on 03.01.22.  I sent my resignation email that day, by the way!  But there was a lot of discrepancy over my last actual day of work, so that is why, on 04.12.22, God said: Enough!  That was the night he gave me and my husband the double dream of the affair.

Side-note for skeptics:  Was a dream of a coloring page truly a confirmation?  It probably wouldn't have been enough for me a year before this, but God had built me up to this point, that my faith was "on go" at this point. So yes, in this moment, I was sure.

Something I haven't mentioned is that, the night after my third double confirmation, mentioned earlier in this post, I had a dream that I won't go into here.  But it was very drawing on me, because it was prophetic of what was coming, but I didn't understand what I was seeing at the time.  One of the reasons God kept speaking completion to me regarding my job was that he was trying to move me (and my husband) along to the next step(s) in our journey.  One of these steps was fulfilling my heart's desire to be a mom and focus more on homeschooling.  But the other was a very specific leading God was doing.  I will discuss that more in my next post, where (I think) I'll be wrapping up this story, with some reflection points.

Until then, keep listening, hearing, and believing. 

Blessings!