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I grew up with a woman in my life who served in the role of grandmother to my siblings and me, as one of my grandmothers passed before I was born and the other lived states away. It was fall of 2025, and this woman had recently moved from her home to another state, and I had not been able to visit her yet.  The dream came between nighttime October 3 and early morning October 4.  I dreamed I was getting into one of the twin beds at her house. It had two extra blankets on top of the usual quilt I was used to, and it was oh so cozy. My pseudo-grandmother was asleep in the other twin bed with one my kiddos, who was much younger in the dream than at present time. I pulled up the covers and closed my eyes. I was just so warm and cozy and peaceful. And that was the end of the dream. This seemed to signal the closing of a season of life  we all had known together and cherished. Curious , I reached out to her daughter, and she let me know that about a week before my dream, her mom...

No longer shall your name be... I'm enjoying a sound machine, low lighting, and a heated neck pad, thankful for the quiet. It's been a few days of continual pressure. The kids and I have some viral thing going for a week now, confirmed today by a doctor. I met a deadline today at work and then took the rest of the afternoon off and, after handling a few things, fell asleep on the couch, not to move again until 6:00 pm. My body thanked me for letting it recover. I planned to pick up a grocery order when I woke up, but realized I never actually clicked the checkout button in my app. So, we had food delivered. And now here I am, thankful to write and breathe in and out.  Tonight, I'm sharing the story of when God gave me a new name. It's something we read in the Bible a good amount, and it often marks a turning point into purposeful focus. In Genesis 17, God visits Abram when he's 99 (vs 1) and renames him in vs 5 before telling him in vs 6 that he will "make you ...

You know...sometimes life just feels like a "horrorcane." This is what my nephew called Hurricane Isaias, as we had driven 7.5 hours to get to the Gulf Coast and had to evacuate within 36 hours. I'm not sure if he nicknamed it on purpose or if he didn't know how to pronounce it. Either way, it tracks. And track it did...right toward where we had planned to spend a week breaking from life events and demands. Three days before my kids and I left for the coast was my work team's first payroll processing in a new system that we had spent months implementing. My phone stopped charging that same night at 11%, and movers were arriving at my house the next day at 8:00 a.m. I needed to be available to them by phone. I stayed up until around midnight working on it, trying to find things to use I had not already moved to the new location, and finally got it working enough to charge. The movers arrived early at the promised time the next morning to help us finalize a home mov...

...[A]nd God changed his heart. Mark 11 was the scripture I was meditating on. Jesus had given his disciples a two-part instruction with an add-on: 1. Go into the village in front of you , and 2. Untie and bring the colt (that you will immediately find and has never been ridden). Then the add-on: 3. If anyone asks what you're doing, tell them I need it . This is all very specific, pointed information. If you know anything about ADHD brains, you don't give more than two to three directions at a time. So this is stellar. I love the words of direction ("in front of") and timing ("immediately"); they just jump off the page. But the end of the add-on was what I was ruminating on: "...and immediately he [anyone] will send it [the colt] here (vs 3)." Jesus didn't say, "If Sarah asks you what you're doing,"...or Asher, Jonathan, Abigail, or Rachel. He said IF ANYONE . I really sat on this a while, trying to get my head around it. Was G...

Two are better than one because they have a more satisfying return for their labor; for if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion.... Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 AMP I told our betrothal story at my husband's memorial service. It was our favorite story to tell in the presence of others, though we had many to come after this one. I'm sharing it here because it truly glorifies God, and it's already recorded! This is the story that led to 23 years of companionship, and culminated seven months ago.  My first hope for this post is that you who are desiring marriage will be encouraged. God is fully capable of bringing things to pass that you desire. And his plan is good for you.  My second hope is to challenge you. Sometimes we can miss God because we don't truly lift our eyes to see with understanding. What he is doing can look so different than how we pictured it coming to pass that we don't realize it IS literally coming to pass, especially if it looks diffe...

I picked up the phone. "Hello, Jenny. My name is Tobias Smith." He began telling me something, and then I woke up from my dream. It was a Friday morning. I began asking myself if I knew someone named Tobias Smith. I got on social media to see if he was a friend of a friend or an acquaintence somehow. I found a Tobias Smith who had connections between the two of us; however, we didn't know each other directly. I sent a friend request and left it at that.  I prayed about whether or not to reach out, as two people can be hearing from God and new details are discovered when they touch base. But in this case, I heard/saw Psalm 46 and realized this was the chapter where God says to "be still and know that I am God" (vs 10). I took this as confirmation that God wasn't asking me to take any action or say anything. The following Monday, I realized I did have more of a connection than I had realized, and I thought maybe Tobias was in my dream just by subconscious awar...

So the heavens and the earth were completed, and all their hosts (inhabitants). And by the seventh day God completed His work which He had done, and he rested (ceased) on the seventh day from all his work which He had done. So God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it [as His own, that is, set it apart as holy from other days], because in it He rested from all His work which He had created and done.  - Genesis 2:1-3 (Amplified) Today was a busy day. Busier than I would like. Today is also the 7-month marker of my husband's death. Writing this in September, I think back to last Thanksgiving when he was still with us, and he shared his last significant dream with me. I'm so glad we changed plans and went into a restaurant and sat down to eat instead of driving through somewhere like we'd planned. I'm not sure it wasn't the last place I sat with him to eat a meal outside of our home, just the two of us, before he passed. I remember a baby crying a lot, and I rememb...