Does God See Me Poop? (Jehovah-jireh as The God Who Sees - Part 2)
The question came from my 7 year old: "Does God see me poop?" I mean...it's a great question, right? I feel like most of us have asked this, even if just to ourselves in the quickest, most fleeting subconscious thought. And to take this even further, if we believe God is all-seeing, then somehow, in some way, the answer is yes.
He can see everything. I feel that's a completely different statement than saying he watches everything, at least in the sense we think of "watching". Feels creepy to us; just sayin' it out loud. I believe, though, there is this weirdly amazing way that God is involved in our everyday lives, but he's just not weird about it. Things like this just aren't a big deal. However, we are a huge deal to Him...and somehow it all works together. We live in a tangible earthly realm, which just makes it hard to grasp these things sometimes.
Don't worry. This entire post isn't about poop, so feel free to stick around. I started with that assumingly universal question because I intended to bring up a cringey feeling. Did it work?
All kidding aside, it is hard for some of us to think of God as that involved in our lives. We want control...autonomy...boundaries. As we should. Even my 7 year old gets it. Healthy boundaries are necessary to establish where we end and another person begins, so they are actually a need. When it comes to the bathroom, there's a lock for a reason. But how about a being who can see past all barriers? This feels like a huge invasion of privacy - a boundary violation. Why does God hold this right? I don't have all the answers folks, but we could go with this thought: We are the created, while He is the creator...and there are just some things he doesn't have to explain to us, no matter how much we hate that answer.
Another Point: Let's also not forget the fall of Adam and Eve. We are now aware of needing privacy and covering. If you consider animals, on the other hand, they don't seem to have a problem pooping in front of anyone, or doing other acts for that matter. Ever been to a zoo? Those animals do not worry about keeping it rated G, even with kids around. I'm not trying to be disrespectful, but just saying that they truly are oblivious, so we don't hold them accountable to some moral law or code of privacy. Some animals will find privacy for delivering their young, but from what I understand (and I am no animal expert), they do this instinctively for safety reasons. (Isn't it funny their instinct is for safety, but not necessarily privacy? Some food for thought there...) But we ate of the fruit and then knew (were aware) we were naked. And now, we cover ourselves from man, but we can't truly ever cover or hide ourselves from God.
I digress. I've given my opinion and some thoughts; take it for what it's worth. I'm switching gears here. (Some of you are very thankful...I get it.) The point I am working out is that, to know God sees it all is just "too much" for some. That much loss of control is a thought some of us have to disassociate from altogether...especially if we have unresolved trauma.
Ah, that word...trauma. Not diving into that today, but soon my friends. Soon.
I've belabored the point - we have an aversion to company in "the loo" (unless you're a mom with small kids and consider privacy to be fantasy currently). But what about when we feel that same aversion to just letting someone, including God, in our overall personal space? Period and case closed?
"a feeling of repugnance toward something with a desire to avoid or turn from it."
What feelings do you get when I mention the words intimacy and attunement? Do they make your skin crawl? Or do they bring you comfort? Or somewhere in between? For some, anyone being in your space - thoughts, feelings, plans - is too much. If you resonate with this, even if you don't know why, I want to propose to you that this is a thought worth analyzing. You owe it to yourself to find a place of comfort with God - and people. It's where you were made to belong, to fit. And if that makes you squirm, I would ask you why?
And this is the end of this post. So, if you're saying, "What?! There's no resolution here!" This was on purpose. It's good to get the gears of your mind spinning, especially if you've never asked these kinds of questions. Sometimes, we need to sit with and ponder them, praying and meditating, before moving forward.
In the next post, I'll have some thoughts to offer toward resolution. If you don't struggle with allowing people and God in, then you got to read a fun, detailed analysis on bathroom boundaries. I can't say I planned on writing a post about that when I started a blog, and I don't know if that was a win or not for you, but thanks for reading either way.
Until next time,
Peace & Blessings, Health & Strength
in the powerful name of Jesus Christ
PS - If you did resonate with this post, and you get what I'm talking about, knowing there is work to do with how you relate with people or God, there are a couple things that can jump start you before my next post. You can read a little on Attachment Theory, if you haven't already done so. And you can also take a free quiz to see your attachment style HERE. (Helpful note: The way you learned to attach to others may also be the way you attach to God.)
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